I can’t give all the fascinating and interesting facts about me in a couple of paragraphs, but I can give you a brief understanding of who I am. I have often been classified of being sensitive and shy and to some extent I completely agree, but when in a specific environment and mood, I become outgoing and careless. Unfortunately, shyness and sensitivity has been seen as a negative attribute and one which tends to slow me down. But in my perspective it has allowed me to observe and experience events which have helped me progress. I have seen the mistakes and consequences of others actions and used it as a leverage point for me to overcome obstacles of similar nature. I am able to understand the perspectives and opinions of others, these observations have allowed me to persevere and tolerate many challenging moments of my life.
Of the many of the people that I have met, have told me to talk more, speak up, and state my opinion in matters as I often tend to stay quiet in front of strangers. Its only few friends and family members that have seen me be the person others want me to be. Ironic, yes but beneficial as I tend to take my time when building trust with a stranger and I like surprising people with a different personality once they think they know me. It has taken a toll on the number of relationships I have had but it has allowed me to develop relationships which I can count on and where others can count on me.
Over a couple of years I have tried to be more outgoing but it contradicts with my gut feeling of staying quiet and observing. I wish to volunteer, get a job, and meet new people, but I can’t. Often due to the shyness and sensitivity but also because of my confidence in my actions. I will someday overcome this blessing and curse but I still hope to have some of my isolated and sensitive attributes as they define me and make me unique. Maybe sometime soon I recognize the need to enhance my attributes and become outgoing, bold, confident, and extroverted. But only time will tell.